29.  Love Hate

The more I think about it
The more I get confused
I’ve tried to build the bridges
So far you have refused
I hope you don’t leave it
Until it gets to late
Can’t determine how I feel for you
Wether it’s love or hate

You weren’t the perfect father
I wasn’t the ideal son
You did some terrible things to me
I also regret what I have done
But I always was so proud of you
You got me through some scrapes
Still I don’t know how I feel for you
Wether it’s love or hate

My door is always open
My phone is always switched on
So if you want to make that call
And contact your mixed up son
I’ll always be listening
And I’m quite prepared to wait
For both of us to sit down
And decide wether it’s love or hate

Please don’t leave it too long
You know how time can fly
It’s impossible to patch things up
If one of us should die
If you decide to do nothing
And leave me in this state
I’ll know you’ve lost your love for me
And I will only feel hate

Continued:

When I die and take the next life
Please don’t wait at heaven’s gates
Because I will not want to see you
I would have done anything it takes
If we can not come together in this life
Amnesty I’m offering you on a plate
Then I cannot love you
I’ll then know it is hate

you see father, you've alredy screwed me up in this life
darned sure you wont in the next
why did you hurt me so bad?
you leave me in limbo, perplexed
i'm offering you an olive branch
perhaps a form of bait
for you to pick up that phone
and tell me, " sorry son, it never was hate

was it because I wasn't blood pappa?
did you foster me for the money?
did you get some kinda kick out of putting me down? (and abusing me)
did you think it was funny?
do you know how much you terrified me?
the nightmares you create
how can you say you loved me?
admit it, it's hate

p.s don't bother contacting me ever, you sad excuse of a man!!!!
and to think he was a scholteacher, scarey! enuff said, case closed.

Love Hate Copyright ©2003 Peter Hardcastle.
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Last 2 verses added 2014, rot in hell you bastard!