must be hard 4 you i would just try to live your own life and you will meet sum1 who loves you and you will love em back its hard if you still love this women i was with my boys father 4 seven years and we split up i thought i would never meet any1 who i would love. but i did and now im happyer than ever in fact i meat him on the net noe we r getting married and live toghter you will 1 day meet sum1 ele who you love im sure of it xxxxxxx