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    OK. I have been asked to share me health issues with you, most know I got CF ( Cystic Fibrosis ) but now a few close friends have said I should be totally honest in how I am, what CF is and what it has really done to me, how I am really feeling not just saying “yeh am ok ” when asked. This won’t be easy reading, but I warn now I want no sympathy, I hate sympathy. I merely want to make more people aware of CF and what exactly it has done to me. I’ll be blunt, I’m dying, more quickly now, every month brings more pain, less oxygen, more fatigue, less energy. I have pain in me joints, pain in me back, pain in me lungs, pain in me head, almost 70% of my body is now in constant pain. I’m on Fentanyl, Morphine, Codeine, Ibuprofen and a couple others just to get me from day to day. Then I’ve got vitamins, steroids, nebulisers and laxatives. I’ve not even mentioned the antibiotics and I.V’s yet. My last lung check showed I’ve got only a 23% lung capacity now, only about 7% away from transplant necessity. I weigh in now at only 7st, ( 101 lbs ). I have a coughing fit if I laugh, I have a coughing fit if I go kitchen an make tea, I eat and fight not to be sick an bring it back up. I suffer from constant acid, because me coughing has wedged open the valve in me stomach that stops gases getting back up into me system. I have a prop in bed to sleep sitting or I run risk of drowning in me own phlegm. With me CF I have now also developed Diabetes and Asthma too on top of the shit I already got to deal with. I have a snack ( mars bar etc ) i need to have 2 pills first to help digest it, I need 3-4 pills to digest a main meal. As I write this I’ve got a headache, backache, stomach cramps and murder chest pains and can’t breathe worth a fuck. Me ribs feel like a horse has kicked me. As I sit here now I too have a reminder in me head of the doctor telling me If things stayed as they were I’d have about 18- 20 months left to live, that was in January this year!!! I always say I’m ok when asked, I hate sympathy, it’s easier to say I’m ok than to be honest and get the awwws and sorries, I don’t need that, harsh maybe but true. CF is a horrible, degenerating, slow, painful fatal illness, the first day I get to breathe free and and leave the pain in the past is the day I take me last breath. CF is a complete bastard, so much so I wouldn’t even put me worst enemies through it. This is the truth, this is my CF.


    Dear tintin

    Thank you for sharing…….thank you for your honesty …….no one deserves to have to go through what you are going through ……..there are a lot of us in chat who love you dearly xxx


    So sorry to hear that, tin.

    I really don’t know what to say.


    @panda12 wrote:

    So sorry to hear that, tin.

    I really don’t know what to say.

    you read it panda and thats what’s important here x


    Very powerful reading Tin Tin thank you for sharing.


    Hope the sharing helps people appreciate what you are going through.

    No wise words, or false platitudes, just my thoughts.

    Look after yourself the best you can.


    Certainly puts my aches and pains into perspective
    Keep fighting lad x


    tintin there are no words appropriate but thank you for sharing and here’s a cyberhug from me for both (((((((((((( you and Snugzzz ))))))))))))


    @tinks wrote:

    @panda12 wrote:

    So sorry to hear that, tin.

    I really don’t know what to say.

    you read it panda and thats what’s important here x

    Exactly Tinks hunni that is the point xxxx and thank you to you Panda, no words needed hun, just the time it needs to read it and support and help in it’s spreading is all I ask, and that thank you goes to you all for your help and support. Thank you all so very much xxxxxx


    Hi Tinners

    peck on the cheek for you and a full blown snog with tongues for Snugglepuss :lol:

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