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it keeps going down on me (the m s n)
and I still can’t see my contacts when i do get in
I can see I have contacts on line but after that its just blank
grrrrrrrrrr

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oh no ones called me one carol
just was thinking about them and got to wondering

Di xx

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Sian and Pebbles I applaud you
I have read every word of your educated posts and agreed with them
your understanding shines through with every sentence
You have said everything I would like to say, but so much better
and for that reason I have just read and not commented

I would not wish a destructive addiction on my worst enemy
its a living death
it consumes your every waking moment
it destroys people around you
it is with you constantly
it sits on your shoulder and mocks you
it waits for that moment of weakness
so it can take hold again
and the only way you can stop that pain
even if only for a little while
is to succumb
to say to yourself
this is the last time
never again!
and for a short while you have a form of oblivion
and you contemplate what would be best for those you are hurting
your death?
you sit there with the paracetamol or the razor blade as you are coming out of it and think
Shall I?
The pain will then be over
but what about those you leave behind?
No!!!!
You cannot do it to them!
Tomorrow you will stop and everything will be alright
but
just for tonight
to get you through those demons
you will have another …

Money has nothing to do with it
White Lightening is £2 for 2 litres
Thats the poorer persons choice
It does the same job
The amount of money you have only decides what form you take your ‘medication’ in
The only difference between a well known addict and an anonymous one are the photographs that appear in the papers
their suffering is exactly the same
‘but they can afford rehab’ you bleat
AA and NA are free
and available to everyone
but does every ‘poor’ person go?

One thing re hab does is keep you off it
for a while
but then , when you are released back into the real world,
there it is
sat on your shoulder,
waiting..
for the rest of your life

Never compare getting off cigarettes to those of other addictions
spouting things you have read
‘Its harder to beat smoking !’
I have read the same articles
Smokers hurt no one but themselves and use this to justify starting up again
thats why its harder to stay off them
Watch a heroin addict do cold turkey
or an alcoholic go through the DTs
then say that
but getting off drugs is the easy part
staying off them is another thing

I hope I havent bored you
but this is something close to my heart

5

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at the moment I’m just tortured

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@~Pebbles~ wrote:

what people need to remember is that an addict cant stop their behaviour…and were not just talking celebrities here, were also referring to normal everyday people who go through this. Its all very well looking down your nose at people and saying they brought it upon themselves, but unless you have actually been an addict of either drugs or alcohol, then you cant comment. And no, its not the same as experimenting, addiction goes far deeper, to the point that people cant focus on anything else. Some people on here seem to think that addicts choose to do what they do. Fact – they dont. They are driven by a compulsion inside themselves. Have a little sympathy for gods sake, and im not referring particularly to Amy, but to people living with this in general.

well said

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@esmeralda wrote:

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@sir Actor wrote:

who’s Carol? :?

Sorry
Carol in the forum
Cas on here

Shes come up from London twice before to stay with me so I can’t be that bad

Aww..I like Cas..give her a hug from me..and have one yourself BB! :P

I like her too
Shame she can no longer make it

Oh well, hes done it again
another weekend on me ownsome grrrrrrrrr

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@sir Actor wrote:

And you’d give Freddie (my fly) a good home?

And would you promise to keep him away from that Venus flytrap of yours?

I’ve re-potted Sven
I even collect rainwater (thank goodness for the British summer)
Hes produced lots of babies and we chat daily
I tell him my problems and he nods sagely and says *there, there*

I’m more concerned with Freddie eating Rupert tbh

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I’m sat here picturing Pete in a black leather posing pouch with studs!
Put my name down
not sure what for but I hate being left out
and whats good for Pats is good for me

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I’d make sure you died a happy man

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If I told you I’d have to kill you :wink:

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