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and I bet there wasnt one of us whos eyes didnt fill up when we were typing the above posts

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I was conceived shortly before my father was sent to the Suez with his National Service and was born while he was there.
He always resented my closeness to my mother, and, I felt showed very little interest in me.
I can never remember him ever hugging me and telling me he loved me

For my 10th Christmas he bought me a beautiful illustrated bible which I have to this day
I loved that bible above all other presents because he bought it for me!

My twin sisters came along nearly 5 years later and had a totally different relationship with him

I remember Saturdayafternoons, and dreading him coming back from the pub.
I used to disappear upstairs because after his sleep he would start on me and it saved my mum the grief of having to defend me
Don’t get me wrong, he never ever laid a finger on me
It was jibes constantly

One Christmas I remember being so happy because he was being especially kind to me
After the dinner was over he turned to my mum and said
‘Christmas is over now can I stop talking to it now’

I used to count the years before I turned 16 and could leave home

I don’t know whether people are born with low self esteem or develop it later.
but I do know I blamed my father for mine for many years.

Trouble is I married a man very like my father and seem to have been attracted to men who are disparaging of me ever since.

when I fell pregnant with my son (who must have been conceived on his fathers birthday) I remember desperately hoping he would be a boy because a termination was suggested by him. It was the first scan where I asked to know the sex of the baby purely because I knew he would be pleased if it was a boy and the pressure would stop.

Anyways
I love my father now
hes a frail old man who has suffered strokes and epilepsy
and he loves me
I still wonder if I would have turned out differently had he showed more love for me but I no longer resent him
Lifes too short

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Is it regarded as a classic

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@pete wrote:

Large heavy boots and 10 minutes is all i ask and i’d sleep easy at night still

10 minutes is not long enough

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@rubyred wrote:

My apologies for missing the quiz last night. I got stuck in a 100mph gale, and decided the sanctuary o my daughters house was nice and cosy , especially when she braved the gales and got us munchies and a small libation.

/nanook o the north. Dundee.

Knew there was a certain something missing last night :roll:

See you next week hopefully Nanook xxx

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Well done Samantha
stresses it was :D

Shame Spain has to get involved in craft skill (10)

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we shall all take it in turns to keep your seatwarm Knee xx

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thanks for the step by step instructions last night :wink:

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If you come next week Kateeeee you shall get a special blinking prize
and by the way

You came 13th
(that in itself deserves a special prize)

but thanks for coming

Diane xxx

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correct Pete x

Starting to shake locks causes strains (8 )

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