no we are not going to shoot you down in flames and we are sorry for your loss, if i didnt have the responsibilities i wouldn’t be so forceful with this, but i want to provide for my family. why should he suffer for the things that i have lost. sometimes its good to have a contrast to help you realise, and to help you keep your feet on the ground.
I dont mean to hurt your feelings or upset you, but it seems like you are still angry about all this obviously, and i feel that it may do you good to talk to someone. I have no idea what it feels like to be in your position but if you do need to talk i can give you my email address if you feel you need to talk or just scream with anger. Take care x