I don’t doubt for a minute that your life is difficult right now Beatty..and you don’t want to be patronised by old farts like me. There’s a line from an old song that sums up how many of us feel in our lives..”I’m tired of living and scared of dying..but old man river..he just keeps rolling along..” Please don’t ever give up on your life Beatty..is there no-one you can talk to..a counsellor or a friend..who will take the time to listen? I envy you your youth and future Beatty..but I have never forgotten the pain and anguish I endured when I was your age and I can empathise with you . Right now..I have my own demons to battle. I wish you well with yours.