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I once loved a woman from afar, never telling her how I felt. The reason for this was her chaotic nature and unsettled moods.
I would help her out and looking back guessed that she must have wondered about why I was around for a while in her life.
She had not had it easy as a kid and in adulthood became like a butterfly, fling from one bright flower to another, forever attracted to the next. And so as she got older she never knew what real love and commitment was.
And so she too became a kind of old flame, a fondness still warms at her memory… later on I wrote a poem and sent it to her..without a name, so that she knew someone out there cared for her in a way.Inner Quest
You search within the depths of your soul for some hidden truth,
You search for the truth within my eyes,
You search for the truth as darkness falls, in star spangled skies that reflect in your eyes,
You search for the truth at each daybreak, within the songs
of the birds as they wake,
You search for truth within the words I say, within my heart I hear you pray,
You search for the truth in the games we play,You search for truth….
You yearn for warmth; you yearn to be loved,
This I see with each daybreak, and within me, I feel
my heartache,I see the fire within your depths,
I feel the pain of your heart, see the question in your
eyes, withheld my heart and caused you sorrow,
when all of the time.. I wanted but all your tomorrows,
carry you along to the end of my days,See into your heart and you will find,
See the joy in a child’s eyes,
See the wind blow across the fields,
See not the man at your side, but the heart and soul, which you have alighted, with fire and passion,
See….. and you will find your truth.Rexdeus xXx
The story for her had a happy end…she found someone who could put up with her and they got married and seem happy…we sometimes meet while shopping, but I often wonder if she knew who sent her the poem…in a way I hope it made her take a step back and look at herself in a different light
I like to thinks so…Maybe she thought she had a mental stalker :?: :?: :? :?
Maybe…. but one poem out of the blue is not exactly stalking…
would you think so?
secondly we were always on good terms…It was I that faded away out of her life…@rexdeus wrote:
Maybe…. but one poem out of the blue is not exactly stalking…
would you think so?
secondly we were always on good terms…It was I that faded away out of her life…I try not to have any regrets in life… Let’s hope that she did take a step back and reassess her life.. doubtful though.. after all women are the superior breed and it is only the faults and flaws in men that are visible to the naked eye…. :wink:
Truthfully however an ex of mine once wrote me a beautiful poem and i still cherish his words to this day…sadly he was a bit of a walkover ..and I knew I could never be the person he wanted me to be…(why is it that people fall in love with you..then set about to turn you into someone else :?: :roll: ) Maybe you should have told her how you felt or atleast let her know it was you who had written the poem…Or was it fear of rejection that stoppped you admitting anything :?: ..I’m not belittling you.. just curious to understand why you hid yourself
No fear of rejection becuse deep down i knew she was not what I wanted, I am the oppersite of her then behaviour, it would never have worked out..I am convinced of that.
Why bother telling her i wrote the poem? simple..did not want to upset her fragile but chaotic state ..but…maybe one day when we are old and gray I might just tell her over a coffee at the old people home…
Looking back I was myself not settled in my ways and was forever on the hunt for the next err..experience.
Dont think I dont know women..I was married for 24 years…before that ended…yes..we are still friends if your wondering about the ex.
Thanks for the insight though..helps me see how others precive me.@rexdeus wrote:
No fear of rejection becuse deep down i knew she was not what I wanted, I am the oppersite of her then behaviour, it would never have worked out..I am convinced of that.
Why bother telling her i wrote the poem? simple..did not want to upset her fragile but chaotic state ..but…maybe one day when we are old and gray I might just tell her over a coffee at the old people home…
Looking back I was myself not settled in my ways and was forever on the hunt for the next err..experience.
Dont think I dont know women..I was married for 24 years…before that ended…yes..we are still friends if your wondering about the ex.
Thanks for the insight though..helps me see how others precive me.How I perceive you :?: :?: Tut did I say that :!: :!: You are a thinker.. someone who feels things deeply. Little things affect you and set your mind looking for answers.. I already realised you were of an older age.. it shows in your writing.. You come across as a bit of a dreamer.. and if truth be known you remind me of a shakespearian romantic ..I think you were born in the wrong era
:wink: :wink: :lol:
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