RIGHT!

Orson, right agree… thanks for response…

I am very independent person,and people often around me drain me, as well for my energy to resolve issues, just tired suppose. As my kid has come to me just 10 minutes ago with big issues over something with expectation that I will make it all better for her, example now provided. Told her to take nice walk with dog, breathe. Has anxiety…

scared lately.sudden change. But seeing my Doctor on this issue tuesday…. upsetting me, hope to be able to get back to a resolve…better place hope. Being told so many things, wish they would stop. Making me more uptight. Do it, get over with, will find my way. Stop warnings..all to do with that surgery..

Do not want to break my legs. Your mom has nice advice.

Xxoo

I shouldn’t have asked you xs I’m sorry xxx I had to sell  my house or he would have got rights to it.  he let me pay for our two kids and never contributed to the rent or the mortgagee we had shared ownership he didn’t pay anything for 5 years and I paid for everything cos I’m more clever than anyone thinks I am. I cant work now but, best you all think I am thick.

Last point of day mizzy..

Yes, took care om my child independently all of her life, supported financially, raised, and protected..as she is older now still has issues.

Learning disabilities. She well maintains and functions, normal like you/me..however,severe anxiety.no confidence, self esteem, challenges own decisions constantly , makes life decisions to hard on self..simple, too hard. Rationalizing difficult. Choice making hard. Been since day could talk and walk..
Doing something, came straight into room, tears, so emotional had to calm her down. Just started on medication which I hate especially in new process state, period of own adjustment. My field very familar. Now has 2 weeks to go to get control substance again..tells me almost out. Called doctor refused to give another prescription to her. She is eating them like jelly beans.. now have to monitor, suicidal tendency? She has done self mutilation before due to anxiety. For those not aware, cut own wrists, scared own arms as well.. with knives. She not knowing even did. I caught it quick…has been on hip more than 20 years. Has boyfriend talking marriage. Aware of everything..until she married she will stick to me like glue..can not or will be ever able to throw her out on own…depends still too much guidance. As hope understand, know many parents have issues..with kids similar to mine will understand. My shared expenses, with partner has a much more serious mental illness. And he is a big adult. See now why work so much, tired. Support all..

Love you.sorry long. Last confession..I too feel like..well away for a while. Any one wishing to shout out pm me.. think time to do as been saying…break….

Mizzy, you know what I say now, please..why love you so..think what I do……whom help..see why do not let that happen to anyone on my watch…
My own family unit too.

I will always take the power god has given me, heart and soul..my strength if myself weak…never ever in my work will I fail to not do, set out to do whom I protect/serve. Now you have the 100%..remember very early on me here at jc, new. Came after me hard. Told you then you will never know that 100 percent of my solid hard drive..this intense power grinds my soul, at rapist, adult and children defenseless, helpless….

Now Ruby, and others who see me as with so many jobs, made fun so forth this is my life 24/7….
This is why qualified, trained, schooled, continue to do so I can be the best to help others.

And now full cat out of bag. Good night

I am so sorry, I do have control over some of the trolls xx but merlin is a nasty piece of crap, I’m sorry n0w you  are a dot on his radar x I’m sorry hes not part of  my gang, hes a proper cunt so I cannot help you